stagnation.

so one of erickson's 8 stages of development is "generativity" vs. stagnation.
read: the ability, desire, will to create & be creative vs. being at a lack of creative, novel spirit.

that is how I'm feeling. I feel burnt out. not that this week was particularly hard (it actually feels like freshman year of high school again, there isn't so much work, you're being "eased" into the school) I just feel kind of tired. I'm enthusiastic, I'm confident, I'm independent, I'm still the girl you know, just not with an interesting blog.

funny because I don't know why I was spurning so much creativity when I was at my nice little private jewish day school with the same run-of-the-mill people. maybe it's because I was constantly being challenged to look at aspects of judaism or god or feminism or who knows what else and that sparked something. maybe it's just that the courses here feel a little bland, nothing to really think think about.

and now, off to do some more psych. honestly, if I wasn't taking psych I wouldn't have any work. such is the way of college.