so I realized today (while talking to dan) that we want people to know the bad things that we do, and want to hear the things that other people will do when we know they'll hurt us. like when you're listening to someone half-tell a story and you know you're missing something, or you get kind of jealous when an ex-boyfriend/girlfriend gets with someone else and you explicitly ask them about it? it's that total LACK of reining in your emotions that is such an interesting concept to think about -- why do we want to know about things that will hurt us?
sometimes I think it's just curiosity, like how we would compare to the other person? or letting the other person know that they just don't compare and you're happier and better off without them? is it just satisfaction that is getting the better of us? it seems really self-satisfying and selfish (which it very well may be) I just don't know how else to justify our inherent desire to be hurt.
I think I ask questions like those for 2 reasons:
#1. I'm a curious person, and;
#2. I kind of like being hurt by things.
I mean #1 is pretty self-explanatory. I'm a curious person. I like asking questions about everything, anything. I like knowing everything about everyone. not in a gossipy way, seriously I really try my best NOT to gossip, I'm just curious. my mom used to call me nosy. I guess I am nosy, but I don't really think it's such a bad things anymore -- it doesn't have the same negative connotation anymore.
the second part of this post got deleted so I'll make it short. I like being hurt because it means I have emotions, it means I can feel, it means there is someone in my life that can really have an affect on me. and I am not moved by things very easily or by people's stories very easily so to know that there is someone who can have an affect on me is a really nice reality check. yes I am human, no I am not a robot.
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