everything works out for a reason...hopefully.

rejection sucks. let's face it. we all know it, we've all experienced it. if you haven't, then it means you haven't been taking enough risks in your life (in which case I would say to get out there in the real world because one day soon enough you're going to realize that not everything goes fine and dandy and some things are just totally out of your control). after experiencing failure (or reality, whichever you prefer), writing a college essay about failure, and experiencing more failure, I, yet again, have another failure to add to the list: rejection from college. I am currently 0 and 1.

now in my essay I wrote about accepting the reality of things and finding the good in the heap of rubble that is the bad. now, of course, that good feels like finding a needle in a haystack. or a piece of gold in a pot of coal. but, I have to be true to myself. I am an optimist. I like to be optimistic. and I've always been a firm believer that everything works out for the best. so now, I have another challenge.

among the final projects, 16-hour work weekends and daily drama, I can add "college applications" to my to-do list. this seems only like the end of the world. I want to be totally done by december 28th. how will I do this? by doing what I have done best for all of high school: working my ass off (hopefully I'll still be able to still maintain my real ass in size 2 jeans).

I promised myself in april that I would only apply to colleges and universities that I loved. I am sticking to this. therefore, I challenge myself to find the good in all the other schools and tell myself (repeatedly, if necessary) that a school that doesn't want me is not the place where I belong.

once again, I have to reevaluate and tell myself that everything happens for a reason. I prayed to god everyday to give me the strength to deal with this setback and now I will have to find the strength in myself to do so. I am given challenges to overcome because they improve my character; they make me stronger. that is the purpose of challenges, that is why life is hard sometimes. and challenges make the victories taste even sweeter. everything happens for a reason. really, it does. I swear it.